Asides

“Wait and see what I will do,” — God. To me. All week. 

 

Sigh. 

 

Wait. 

 

How do I do that again?

 

Wait.

 

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“Wait and see what I will do,” —

I am going to lose my mind.

 

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good.
His love endures forever.
Give thanks to the God of gods.
His love endures forever.
Give thanks to the Lord of lords:
His love endures forever.

to him who alone does great wonders,
His love endures forever.
who by his understanding made the heavens,
His love endures forever.
who spread out the earth upon the waters,
His love endures forever.
who made the great lights—
His love endures forever.
the sun to govern the day,
His love endures forever.
the moon and stars to govern the night;
His love endures forever.

10 to him who struck down the firstborn of Egypt
His love endures forever.
11 and brought Israel out from among them
His love endures forever.
12 with a mighty hand and outstretched arm;
His love endures forever.

13 to him who divided the Red Sea[a] asunder
His love endures forever.
14 and brought Israel through the midst of it,
His love endures forever.
15 but swept Pharaoh and his army into the Red Sea;
His love endures forever.

16 to him who led his people through the wilderness;
His love endures forever.

17 to him who struck down great kings,
His love endures forever.
18 and killed mighty kings—
His love endures forever.
19 Sihon king of the Amorites
His love endures forever.
20 and Og king of Bashan—
His love endures forever.
21 and gave their land as an inheritance,
His love endures forever.
22 an inheritance to his servant Israel.
His love endures forever.

23 He remembered us in our low estate
His love endures forever.
24 and freed us from our enemies.
His love endures forever.
25 He gives food to every creature.
His love endures forever.

26 Give thanks to the God of heaven.
His love endures forever.

 
Psalm 136

I literally started laughing at something in my dream last night and laughed so hard I woke myself up in the middle of the night. 

I think our brains and our bodies are just so fascinating. I also wonder what its significance was… I have no memory of ever having a dream like that before. Generally my dreams are either nonsense or terrifying. It’s interesting that an emotion from my dreamworld seamlessly carried over into my waking-world and that I was aware the entire time. 

On an unrelated note: Happy Advent! I think that God placed something on my heart today that had not been there previously. I don’t really know what it means or if it’s just my own desire speaking, but it’s worth noting it was something I had previously opposed and has been showing up in my life lately. I’m also re-evaluating my opposition towards it and finding that there are logical answers to questions I previously held. Regardless, I’m not ready to really voice it yet. Partially because it’s something that I need to feel 100% sound about in my motivation and partially because I’m a little nervous that by voicing it I would be pushing the ‘GO’ button. Green light. No stopping. I’m not ready just yet. Maybe it will be in 9 months or maybe a year or two. But I think maybe. Maybe.

I have SO MUCH I need to write about. Like my crazy new job(s), my relationship status, all of the amazing people in my life, blessings…. etc. 

But I am scatter-brained right now and have about 10 pages of budget planning I need to do tonight so it’s ready for my FPU (Financial Peace University) class tomorrow immediately following my 9-hour work shift. 

But before I pay some bills, crunch some numbers, and hit the sack… I need to write about the awesome (literally, awesome) way God blessed my life tonight.

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My friend Sarah has some pretty adorable and incredible children that I got to spend some time worshipping with tonight at our Ash Wednesday service. The night was just so awesome and the kids got to color on big pieces of paper taped on the walls and draw pictures that God gave them. So beautiful.

I was sitting on the floor taking in the worship music and talking to God towards the end of the night. I had my eyes closed and was trying to be still in His presence. I just felt kind of blah, like I wasn’t really connecting. I sat there for some time in silence, eyes closed, and finally I just kind of said in my head, “I wish someone would come over and pray for me.”

Beat.

“Jenn, do you want me to pray for you?” said this little voice. 

Barely a moment had passed after I made this request in my head, when I heard this tiny little voice and opened my eyes to my friend Sarah’s daughter, Zacharee, kneeling on the floor in front of me.

Zacharee is 7 years old. She is in the first grade. 

She laid her hand on my shoulder and I felt God’s Holy Spirit come over my body as she prayed silently over me. 

God wanted to use this precious little girl to bless my life. Know what’s even cooler? That she was obedient to His call. I don’t know about you, but I don’t know many first graders who could muster up the courage to walk up to adult and ask them point blank, “Do you want me to pray for you?”

I couldn’t help but just start smiling and laughing at how crazy the whole thing was. I almost didn’t even have time to process what was happening other than one moment I was feeling distant and the next my eyes were about to pop out of my head when God answered my request in real time.

I am so thankful for Zacharee and her sweet, gentle obedience to her Father. By her simply taking a step out in faith and responding, she greatly blessed my life tonight in a new way. 

This Lenten season I haven’t felt moved to “give up” or “do” anything at all. I was a little disheartened until Zacharee prayed for me tonight. I think this season God is calling me to be obedient to Him, like a little child looking to Him as my Father, trusting that His plan is good. To choose obedience each day, to seek His purpose for my life, and to step out in faith even when it’s hard. Even when it’s awkward. Even when it’s embarrassing. 

Choose obedience

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